While I love the fall and the cooler temperature, I get S.A.D. (seasonal affective disorder). Seriously, a wave of panic came over me the other night when I realized it was dark at 8:30. (I've felt that same wave a panic the last few days thinking about my impending birthday. For some reason, turning 29 is freaking me out, but that's another post in itself.) Where did the summer go? In May, I made a list of all the things I wanted to do this summer. My aspirations were high, but I was determined to make the most of the summer months ahead. I wrote down things like hike a lot, go to the lake, search for geodes in Dugway, camp, throw parties, go to Lagoon (even if it is a little ghetto), work on house projects, paint, etc.
I had the same ambitions I have some nights when I go to bed and set my alarm. I think to myself, "I am going to get up early tomorrow- earlier than I've ever woken up before! I'll set my alarm for 5:30, get up, excersise, then fix a healthy, hearty breakfast, pack Andrew's lunch and one for me too since of course I'll have time, then get ready, curl my hair, iron my outfit, and even clean the house a little before I head out for work!" Then when my alarm goes off at 5:30, I wonder what in the world I was ever thinking and hit snooze a couple hundred times until I finally get up, scramble around, wondering if I have time to wash my hair.
Maybe I had too high of expectations when I made my summer list because out of my whole list of 50 or so things to do, I think we did about 5. Instead of having fun exploring the mountains near my house while singing "The Hills are Alive" and planning wild luau parties, I spent the majority of my time trying to figure out why I wasn't having a baby and working. Not my ideal summer to say the least!
So here I am, trying not to fret over the inevitable. Instead I'll ease my nerves (even if it is medically induced) and make a list of Fall activities that I want to accomplish. Pumpkin patches, carving jack-o-lanterns, drives through the canyon to see the leaves changing, Thanksgiving, Halloween parties, hot soups, make pretty Holiday decorations, etc...What are some of your plans for the fall?